Talk To God About Everything
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Happy May 1st The snow is gone and the mud is drying up and turning into dust As I walked over the cracks of the sidewalk pushing him in the stroller I caught myself praying. [...]
Do You Know What The Rarest Thing In The World Is?
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00I could hardly stand there. My heart was already broken and every part of me wanted to grab dirt from that mound and throw it into the air and scream. It felt wrong, it felt [...]
Happiness Is Being Unique
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Happy Saturday Everyone ..because its been a few weeks since I last created a post ..because my husband informed me the traffic on my blog is high I promise I am still here learning I [...]
Things That Shine
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Who made the rules up , I ask No one, everyone just knows them,, everyone but me... Can you imagine for one minute driving down a highway with no posted speed limit signs. You might [...]
No More Overlooking The Small Things
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00No more overlooking the small things because they are all that is beautiful. I found a twig on the ground as a very young child and stared at it for hours. My eyes were drawn [...]
How Many Letters are Different in Different
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00As a little child growing up in the mennonite religion not a lot of things were different. The woman all dressed the same, the men all dressed the same and in a lot of ways [...]
The Forgotten People
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Anxiety about Anxiety How deep down the rabbit hole can we go. I have anxiety that I will never be accepted by anyone. With good reason- I am rarely accepted. I stay at home other [...]
Connecting To The Edge Of It
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00How can I be a good friend when I cannot understand what it means to be a good friend to those who are not Autistic? One of the biggest questions I have had in my [...]
Family- An Anchor In Rough Waters
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Yesterday was lonely. While families gathered together in celebration of Easter filling it with whatever meaning or tradition closest to their heart, my husband and I experienced a quiet day at home. My face book [...]
Super Heroes Dressed in Casual Clothing
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00Super Heroes are defined as people who go above and beyond the normal call of human duty. Yet, in these days the balance of people really giving to this world their very best compared to [...]
How Ideas Destroy Instinct
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:14-04:00What is the normal actions of a ladybug? Those tiny red bugs that have black round spots. I often wished to be a ladybug and maybe if past lives are really true I was. Faking [...]
Simple Language
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00My husband once told me I do not understand concepts. I looked concept up in the dictionary and what it says is a concept is an idea. I'm sure he doesn’t mean I do not [...]
Dying To Be The Same
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00As long as I can remember I wanted to fit in like everyone else. But I never did. Even today I have very few friends to share my life with. Isolation is a big and [...]
Extraordinary People
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00As promised yesterday here is a post about an Extraordinary Person I hope to meet one day. He is running an Autism Awareness Campaign this year and will be giving a presentation at his school [...]
Speechless
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00I am just angry today I am angry today because I am weary of hearing people say and reading people write that someone who is Autistic is disabled. Anger isn’t a good thing either because [...]
Starting To Come Back
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00If you are alive you are a target for cupids arrow I have been told before I seem too normal to be Autistic (OUCH!) Is it really hard to believe that all things that are [...]
Building Without Limitations
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00Today is her birthday! She is 20 years old! There is a rumor that has gone around that Autistic people cannot have children and do not make good parents. I have 3 children and also [...]
The Same Today and Forever
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00There is too much changing and I can't seem to hold on. There is a terrible fear I experienced when my children left home. I have very desperate need sometimes to have sameness and stability. [...]
No Faking A Heartbeat
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00Fake it until you make it This works unless you are someone who has no clue what is being made. We once drove home in a terrible snowstorm. Before our eyes looked as though God [...]
Old Wooden Chairs
Colleen2017-08-21T23:09:15-04:00There has been a lot of controversy around Autism Awareness with some saying awareness does nothing. The real key is to have acceptance. When I was a young girl I remember my grandmother taking me [...]